There are so many things that I’d like to tell you. There are so many things I’d like to do;
All of them involve the words “I love you”.
In this fast paced life where I was struggling to cope up and stand;
You gave me your heart, your soul, you always gave me a hand.
I have never felt such emptiness inside of me like I feel right now;
I can’t explain it, I have everything. How?
I can only hear stories about you from family, friends and almost everyone;
I spent my whole life with you and I still cannot say a verse, zilch, none.
The times you’ve supported me and given me advice;
The times you’ve provided for me even when it didn’t suffice.
You had stood up to the world and made us your priority;
Such love I have never felt, I feel blessed to be part of your legacy.
From the littlest things like a small star sticker or to the big things like supporting a poor soul;
You never thought twice, you always gave in whole.
I have not known what to write for so long now, I still don’t;
Without you here anymore, I took a decision that I won’t.
But you wanted me to write, you wanted me to read;
You wanted me to run, you wanted me to succeed.
You put me in Karate, tennis, squash and badminton;
Table Tennis, swimming, basketball, darts and the very earth I live in.
I am truly speechless right now. I don’t know what to say;
After such an ordeal, come what may.
You were and still are my idol, I hope you knew it;
I’ll do my best to carry your fire on. It’s in my genes after all isn’t it?
You’d call me a thousand times everyday to know how I was;
You’d always be ready, just in case I missed a bus.
You never let me feel low, you never provided me with less;
I didn’t know that word till now, life is such a mess.
How did you do so well in life? Just coz of your heart and mind?
Why didn’t you stay longer? God realized he gave the earth such a precious find?
I am not sad inside, I am just angry;
That I didn’t know you too well and for that I am sorry.
Such opportunities come few at a time;
I had my opportunities for years and all I can do about it now is rhyme.
I promised you just two things and those two things I will do;
It’s the least I can do for someone like you.
You will always remain in my heart and my mind when I visualize a mother;
It’s a hard job, I realize it now. I’ll remember your ideals when I become a father.
It’s just so freaking hard to love that much, don’t you see?
Because such love in today’s world costs something. Unfortunately nothing today is free!!
Ever since I can remember I remember your smile, whenever you came home and saw us all;
I wish I could remember everything but I cannot, though I definitely do remember our fall.
When we fell down those stairs, brother and I cried. I remember you fell too;
But you hugged us, wiped our teary faces and said the magical words “I love you”.
Later next year when I asked you how you got that scar on your leg that I had just noticed;
You told me of the day you fell with us, but you still said it didn’t hurt in protest.
You know why I am so sad and angry today? It’s because of the love showered on me by you;
Because in all these years I never asked you this even once when i should have. “Mom, how are you?”
I love you mom and I promise to do you proud.